Blake going to kindergarten???

Tomorrow at 12:30 Blake will have his Kindergarten screening and while I know he is smart enough to go to school in the fall. And even though he will only be 5 for less than a month before school begins I know he is ready.
His teachers at preschool are impressed on how quick he has picked things up and if he don't succeed the first try he wants to keep trying. This morning he wanted a pen and paper and said he was going to write his last name and he sure enough did so he can now write his first and last name!

With all of that being known I am a ball of nerves about tomorrow, worried he will get shy or freak out with all the new people but I have to hide that and encourage him to do well. So I hope that Monday I can make a post that he will indeed be attending Kindergarten in August 2010!

Goodbye scale goodbye

Why is it that we can let a number on the scale rule our life?? Depending on its reading depends on what you eat drink and how you feel that day.


I have no idea on how many years I have let the number on the scale dictate my mood for the day. I will weigh morning noon and night and lots of times in between when I am trying to get to a certain number. Back in Highschool I wanted the number to read 100 or below thought that would be a “good” weight. Now I just want to be the number I was when we got married 6 and a half years ago.

The scale has became an unhealthy relationship for me, but saying goodbye is hard and causes anxiety. Right before my birthday I had decided to cut off the ties with the scale and limit to only weighing a couple times a week, and to not let that number determine my moods. Well the day of my birthday Sunday April 25th my scale died, I got on it that morning as I always do and found that it was reading odd numbers and not giving an accurate reading. Of course my husband quickly says well we will get batteries when we go to the store tonight. He has never really found it odd that I weigh so much but I have done this since we started dating back in October 1998. Luckily he didn’t remember the batteries and I didn’t mention it because I am not going to replace them anytime soon.

I noticed that Blake has watched me on the scale numerous times and he now wants to weigh to see how much he has grown each time he is in the bathroom. That is NOT a habit I want him to have. We have talked to him about why we are over weight and why its important that he eats healthy now and limits junk and soda to special occasions. He wants to be just like daddy which is great but we don’t want him to have a weight problem. Its hard to lead as a good example for your child when you struggle each day to make the right choices and were never taught the importance of healthy eating and exercising.

So as stressful as it is I no longer have a scale to get on numerous times a day and night at home, its been extremely hard not knowing what my number is but I have to learn to focus on how I feel inside and out and how my clothes fit.

If you stumble... make it a part of your dance

I got a really nice thoughtful gift from co-workers today, and it was totally unexpected. My birthday is Sunday and usually at work the norm is card maybe some candy or a pie from Slice of Pie. I really wasn't expecting even a card just from the mood of the office the past few weeks.

So as I sat at my desk working I got a pink gift bag which contained a card, chocolates and a little wooden frame with this saying If you stumble... make it part of your dance. The quote on the gift couldn't have came at a better time. Since getting our new software program I haven't mastered the workings of it and it frustrates me daily. Also there has been alot of other things going on I am trying to make sense of. The nice gift is sitting right next to my monitor at work and will remain there for me to look at daily when things get tense.

I haven't tried the candy yet as my boss went to Slice of Pie and got a fresh apple crisp pie and vanilla ice cream. I told her it was a good thing that my birthday didn't happen last week because I would have really needed that duct tape to make the dress fit!

The current week and the upcoming weekend

This has been a very odd week for me, work is busy and stressful. We have a new computer software program I am not getting the hang of which frustrates me to no end. I very much dislike not being able to do something. I have had lots of mental battles going on in my head that I am trying to sort out. After last week on going very crazy with food and exercise I am trying hard to get back in the right groove. I have been alternating walking at lunch with going to tan and making sure I bring my lunch. Today it looks dreary but the stress I have endured with work this morning I could care less if I get soaked I am walking/jogging.

This Sunday is my birthday and while I am not excited about turning 27 I am not upset either its just another year and another birthday. Kenny isn't big in to celebrating birthdays or anniversaries so it will be just another ordinary Sunday. Saturday Blake gets to go farm with his April and Mike he has been counting down the days for weeks. He told me I had to make sure his farming jeans were clean and that he was wearing his farming cowboy boots. I know that April and Mike are just as excited to get to spend time with him and I am sure he will be telling them all sorts of tall tales. Then that night he will stay with Connie and Dwayne and watch cartoons with Connie the next morning and who knows what all they will do before we come to pick him up Sunday afternoon. But I am sure he will have a great time and have lots of stories to tell.

Oh my how Blake has grown in a year

Last summer when Blake got his fourwheeler for his 4th birtday he could barely touch the foot pegs. But not even a full year later he is reaching them with ease. He no longer has to stretch to reach the brakes and has gotten the hang of how to ride. If he watches his Uncle Mark to much he wants to do donuts and wheelies just like Mark which is fine when he gets to be a lot older than 4.

My in-laws bought him the fourwheeler to keep at their house since they have a big yard and live on a gravel road. But I think this year we will get to be the ones to buy him a big present. Blake has played on a trampline a few times and really wants one so I think that he will have one set up in the yard when we come home from his birthday weekend.
Oh and I secretly want a trampline too, I loved mine when I was young and miss it. Plus its a good workout!!

Last weekend

Here is a picture from the wedding I was in last Saturday. It was a very pretty wedding and with a little duct tape my dress fit great.
The day was long but was good, I loved how my hair was fixed and my jewelry we wore. Oh and my shoes were awesome and I wore them the entire night! Now I have to try and find a dress that will match them so I can wear them some more.

What a week this has been

Last week was stressful playing the role of single mommy. But we managed and survived it. The weekend was busy with having family time and driving around getting bids for our new house which we are super close to having them all in yay!!!



This weekend will be just as busy, I am in a wedding on Saturday the rehearsal is Friday night after work. I am apprehensive on how I look and feel in my dress everyone that has either seen me in it and those I have emailed a picture to say I look great. Just not sure if I believe them or if I am getting an honest opinion. But I always second guess how I look and feel in things so its really nothing new per say but it’s the first time I have became OCD about it in a long time.

All week I have been restricting food and getting in extra workouts and burning as many calories as I can to shed a few more pounds before Saturday and well the hard work is paying off because the dress fit today and didn’t have much trouble zipping it. But I am not going to let my guard down because Saturday is still far off and I want to lose a couple more pounds just so I can have breathing room in the dress. I hope to get a good picture of me all dressed up and will post it next week.


Blake is starting to catch on when we tell him he can’t have something because its not good for him or its junk food and he has started asking daddy why he drinks soda if its not good for you??? It’s a good question we want our kids to grow up eating healthy or as healthy as possible and not drink soda daily just for special outings but yet we drink it and eat junk and he notices. I was never allowed to have soda at home only got to drink it when we went out to eat on Friday nights and I still to this day rarely drink more than one a day if that. Although mountain dew is hard to give up once you get started on it you crave it daily. So I think this summer I will really work on our food habits now that Blake is learning what is good healthy food and what isn’t. I am thankful he’s one of those kids who don’t like to eat junk until he gets sick and really the only candy he does like are m&m’s and Hershey bars.

Nathans big accomplishment of the week…. He started saying momma and bubba its so darn cute. He will start saying bubba when he wakes up until he sees Blake and then he smiles real big. He is also becoming more efficient crawling and exploring rooms.