Last weekend

Yes I realize its Thursday and I am just now posting about the weekend. It's been one heck of a week at work. 

Last Saturday the boys decided they wanted to go farm (or play games on their tablets and eat whatever they want) so I took them to my mom and Mitch's to play. I spent the day cleaning and doing laundry. When Kenny got home we decided to til up the garden spot and get ready to plant. 

The trip to the plant store was interesting I have helped my grandparents in the garden from breaking of ground to plowing it all under at the end of summer. Each year I was out there helping however Kenny is only on second year of gardening and first year of planting (last year my grandpa tilled it up and planted all but the tomato plants when we were at work). 

Tons of plants to chose from. I told him to pick his tomato plants as he is the only one in our house who eats them. I went and picked out peppers, cucumber, great beans, squash, melon, and looked around at all the other veggies. I was done and he had yet to decide on tomato plants. 

We got home and the kids decided to stay the night which was fine so we set out to plant our potatoes onions and corn. 

Grandma decided to come over and help us and even in her 70's she is one heck of a worker! As you can tell its close to dark and she was still full of energy after a long day cleaning her sheds out. 

We are waiting another week before planting the other plants to be sure the cold snaps are gone. I'm excited to have our garden started as I know it will be lots of work but very rewarding. 

Sunday I had to get up early as the ambulance district I work for was hosting an EMS day to kick off EMS week. We were having hamburgers, hotdogs, soda,water, bounce house, face painting along with helicopters, fire trucks, cop cars and ambulances for kids to look at. The whole event was free and boy did we draw a crowd! I helped a coworker cook the hamburgers and hotdogs on the grill and we were busy busy!! The day was a huge success. I did break away from the grill once to take a pic work a friend/coworker. We opted to sit on the front bumper of the fire truck and pose for a picture.  

Then later in the day we sat on the other side for a picture 

It was a super long day but also fun. After we cleaned all of it up loaded up and unpacked I stopped at the gas station for this. 

And it tasted oh so good after a hot day. The boys were with Kenny and his brother and son fishing so I stopped there to drop them off tea and burgers. While there Nathan caught a fish. 

He was proud of it. Of course it got thrown back. 

This weekend is another big weekend the kids look forward to all year. I still need to get everything packed and ready! So behind on this due to the boys having baseball practice 3 nights this week. 

The Weekend is Coming.....!!!!!

Finally it is Friday and just 7 more hours of work and it will be the weekend! For some reason this week has seemed to drag on forever. Blake is counting down the days until school is out as well as how many days until its time for the Pig Roast. Hard to believe that May is almost over!

I hope this weekend we can finally work on getting our garden ready to plant! It will be added work to a busy schedule this summer but well worth it having fresh veggies.

Twice this week rain has canceled Blake's baseball practice so its rescheduled for Tuesday and Thursday of next week. Oh and Nathans practice is Wednesday... Will be a busy week that's for sure. I also have a board meeting Thursday night so I will be cutting it close getting back From Blake's practice.

Sunday is the start of EMS week and the ambulance district that I work for is hosting a fun event Sunday from 1-6.

I know my boys would love it and have fun but no way for me to work the event and keep an eye on them..

Also been trying to come up with a plan for workouts something that will work for me. I have came to realize I will have to create a plan from scratch as none of the ones I have seen online will work in with my schedule. I don't have any races on the horizon but want to get my fitness level back up to par.

Hope the weather finally decides to warm up and stay having frost on your window in the middle of May is crazy!!!!  Also the colder temps and rain keeping the kids indoors makes them crazy!

A Rant or Two.....

Not often do I post about a rant but this one has been bugging me for a while now.... I signed both boys up for baseball back in March. Nathan to play tball and be his first time ever doing a sport and Blake for Bantam Ball and would be his second time. They were BOTH super excited I was happy but knew full well that between two jobs practices and games it would be crazy!

I looked at when the games would be to ensure it wouldn't interfere with work or monthly meetings, to my surprise they both would play on Friday nights. Yes be a long night but Friday is better since we don't have to always get up early on Saturdays.

I knew they had the coaches meeting in April so figured by first of May we would hear from the coaches know what team they were each on and schedules. And I waited and waited and waited. Asked a few friends who had kids playing and they hadn't heard anything and then last week a few of them finally found out what team their kids were on... By the end of last week Blake's coach finally called to set up a practice for tonight at 5:30 (cue stress on my part I get off at 5, have to drive about 10 miles to pick kids up then another 5-8 miles to the park practice is). I can do it but dang its cutting close...

So still waiting and waiting to hear from Nathan's coach and nothing. Other parents who have kids in tball had heard from their coach. Today on my lunch break I called the Recreation Center that we had to turn fees and forms in to. The guy was SUPER nice and told me who my son's coach would be and that I wasn't the first parent to call and wonder why coaches weren't talking to parents sooner. First game is May 30.

Now my major rant why sign up to be a coach if you aren't going to take the time to communicate with the parents of the kids on your team.. How hard is it to call or heck send a mass text giving the parents information. I know for a fact I am NOT the only working mom who needs to plan practice and games around work.

I can only hope both coaches are better on the field then they are with communication. Needless to say I know both of the coaches somewhat they were both a few years ahead of me in school and well I wasn't ever impressed back then. However I will put that aside and start fresh and hope for the best.

Bottom line its a huge pet peeve of mine when people don't communicate and are just lazy about things.  They knew April 7 who was on their teams and took over a month to make contact...

My other rant is from lunch today. I met a friend for lunch at a Mexican Restaurant got there right at 12. Over half the people in there I am sure were on their lunch breaks but the staff was super SLOW in getting around to drink orders and taking your order. I have ate many places on my lunch break and they are all quick. Lets just say the waiter didn't get much of a tip for me... He gave us our food and never saw him until he gave us our check...

I may be nuts but I am glad school is almost over its getting increasingly harder to get Blake up and moving each morning. He is wore out and ready to be done with school just as much as I am. One more week!

Both boys have taken a notion they don't want to sleep in their rooms but want to camp out in the living room floor nightly. I thought ok one or two days but its been two weeks I may be a bad mom for this but I am letting it slide until school is out. Then it will be back to their rooms to have my sanity back of an evening.

There is more I could rant about but I won't for now. The baseball thing had just been eating at me for far to long...... Maybe it shouldn't have bothered me and maybe it wouldn't have bothered anyone else. But I am a planner and like to know what and when things will happen.

Changes

It's time for some changes and some are long over due as well. This week I am participating in a Facebook Challenge of no sugar for a week. The hardest part of that is no soda... Lets just say the first two day were awful. Along with the fact I worked ambulance Sunday night, regular job on Monday, back to ambulance at 5:30pm to work all night then back to my regular job Tuesday then meeting right after work. But knowing I made it thru that with no soda showed me I could do it the rest of the week.
I am actually thinking about trying to stay away from soda until the end of the month. May make an exception and have one at the pig roast on Memorial Weekend but may not. Not eating anything with sugar in it left me feeling icky and nauseous first part of the week. However I found that many of the foods I eat have no sugar or only 1gram of sugar. I really figured it would be a lot harder to find foods to eat.

Breakfast still continues to be the hardest part of the day easier to just skip it vs trying to fix something healthy that I can bring with me to work.  I did break down Monday morning and buy a tub of mango strawberry Spark by Advocare.  A good friend told me that it would help with the want of soda and give natural energy. That friend works just as many hours usually more than me a week and has kids as well. So far its NOT my fountain Dr. Pepper but it tastes good gives energy and no crash later.

I don't count calories one reason being I get to focused on numbers and want a low number and get stressed out. I have loosely calculated what I have been eating this week and finding its far to low. I know I need to change that this weekend and for next week.

Another change is not letting the number on the scale dictate my mood. It had got to a number I was very ashamed of a number I have never seen in my life. I will still weigh on occasion just to see where I am at. I know I need to weigh some along with loosely counting calories so I don't end up in the spiral of eating issues.

Workouts haven't been consistent and its mainly just getting extra steps at work, more trips up the stairs and parking farther away at stores. Its a process and I know myself well enough to know I can't just up and change food, lifestyle and workouts at the same time. I need to take small steps and master one thing at a time and I know the rest will follow.

We had my Grandma's auction this past Sunday not going to lie it was hard. I kept myself busy helping cook food for the lunch stand and watching some of the stuff sell along with talking to friends. A few close friends that were there knew without asking I was struggling and were amazing to help keep my mind off things. Having that done and over is a big stress relief, my Grandma seems to be glad all the clutter is gone she can now decorate and do as she wishes in the house. That excites me that she is wanting to do and change things to the way she wants.  I know that many times when someone loses their spouse and had been married 60 years the remaining person sometimes gives up and don't want to push on. Glad to see she is just as stubborn and independent as ever!

Another change I haven't talked about is wanting to change jobs. I love love my job as an EMT and that job will stay. But I have came to realize my full time office job is a major stressor and a big factor in to my major breakdown a couple months ago. I took two days off last week and it was great I wasn't stressed frazzled or unhappy. Even with helping my grandma pack and move boxes for the auction spending hours cleaning my house just to have the mini tornados come thru and make a mess I wasn't stressed. So I am keeping my eyes open for a new full time job preferably in the medical field or in an office doing something I will enjoy. Part of the reason I picked up all shifts I could at the Ambulance was for extra money to pay off some unnecessary bills. They are almost gone which means I won't HAVE to make what I do per hour now to make it.

Also been debating on checking in to some schooling in the medical field not sure what avenue or if I will but I want to look at all options, I am young enough to still find a job I enjoy and love to do and make a career out of it.

One huge change is learning to stand up to the negative people in my life, as well as blocking out their comments. Not perfected yet but getting there. Some of the people I can walk away from and not need them and their negativity in my life but others I can't so I have to learn to let it roll off my back.

 

 

Saw this quote on pintrest this morning and its very very true! I am bad about back tracking and going back to what was comfortable even if it didn't work.

 

To many times (more than I care to county or admit) I have wanted to give up throw in the towel and say screw it. But I am not the kind of person to quit or walk away from things I want. Thankfully I had a couple of good friends that saw I wanted to give up and helped me thru. I also had friends walk away during that time. 

Long rambling post and sorry to bore everyone but I need to write my thoughts down get them out of my mind and off my chest so I can follow thru with my changes.



April Recap and May Goals.

May already wow... Blake has 3 more weeks of school then he will be a 4th grader which is crazy for me to think about. Nathan will start preschool in August geez where did my little kids go...


Anyway time to recap April and how the goals went then set some goals for May.

1-Participate in a instagram challenge called #HeatItUp. Never tried one of these challenges before so thought it would be fun. Yep epic fail on that one.

2-Decided to do the April plank a day challenge however I know if I try to aim for the seconds and minutes it states each day I will get overwhelmed and quit. So I am just going to do a plank each day for however long I can hold it. Totally forgot about this goal I had set.

3-Do more family things with the kids and hubby. Blake loves roller blading so I think I am going to make that something me and him do together until Nathan wants to go out there with us. Then find something that Nathan and I can do together. Took both kids staking once last month but we spent lots of time together at home played out side some. So I think it was a success both kids were glad to have me come outside and play.

4-Less soda I don't need to add more water doing good at that. Right now I really only want soda when I eat certain foods or really stressed. So I will just limit it more and more and hopefully one day I won't want it. Doing good with this one. I have been drinking only one a day some days none.

5-More bike rides with the boys. I learned Saturday that I need to figure out what is out of whack in my lower back hip area that has been causing pain and making it hard to ride the bike. No on bike partly due to my back and hip and partly to crazy weather and getting ready for my Grandma's auction. However been seeing the chiropractor and feel so much better.

6-Continue to work on stress management. Well I didn't have any major meltdowns last month so I would say must be a improvement :)


Goals for May:
1-Time with family plain and simple can't let life get busy and not spend quality time with the kids.

2-Exercise more I have no races on my agenda but want to be ready to say hey lets do  a 5k at the last minute.

3-Eat more I find I don't eat enough and also eat better foods. I have a wedding we are attending at the end of May and I want a cute dress that I feel good in. At the moment none of my clothes fit and I am NOT liking it.

4-Make time to do things with some of my close friends. Sure texting and facebook is great to stay in touch but I need face to face time and heart to heart talks with my friends.

5-Work on getting up early to workout on treadmill before waking the kids up. With school getting out soon we won't be as rushed in the morning and I can get workout done get kids up and still out the door by 7:10. (now its up rush rush to get out the door by 6:50 to catch bus on time)


April was a strange month for me had some good times and some crappy ones. I took a few days off work this past week time for me. I have NEVER EVER done this in my life. If I take a day off its for a purpose of dr appt for me or kids or last year to take my grandpa to appts. But I took two and a half days off for me. I stayed home caught up on things there that had been neglected. Got my eye exam done which I had been putting off. And it was so nice not to have the stress of my office job. Of course that all came crashing back yesterday within an hour of being at work. The time I was off I lost 5 pounds I wasn't working out or breaking a sweat so I am thinking this has a lot to do with stress. I don't stress eat stress makes me NOT want food.