This week has been hard but have realized I have some pretty amazing friends both new and old. I am trying to lose weight get healthy and strong the right way this time. Not by restricting calories or trying to workout to end the day with a negative number on Myfitness Pal. Its a struggle one I usually survive for a few days and then quit. Or end up on the cycle of skipped meals for days/weeks.
For the last two weeks I have been using the app and logging my food. I haven't done much in the workout area but I am ok with that I think that I need to get food under good control and be ok with eating 1200 calories a day and adding in cardio and strength little at a time. I have also switched up what I have been eating trading out empty nutritional value high calorie foods (that I would eat just to get some calories in toward my 1200 goal) for foods that are good for me and for my body. I had gave up soda for 11 days and then caved and had one.
Monday was super stressful at work and when I get stressed one of two things happens. I either skip meals or I have a fountain dr. pepper. With the encouragement of two amazing friends I ate my meals and stayed away from soda. However we had a training meeting at the fire dept that night and I sent out a text to a friend that if they got themselves a soda for the meeting would they please bring me one. It didn't taste that good but it was an odd relief and I got thru the meeting without strangling anyone.. I think that if I hadn't had that soda there would have been one person who would have got a nice piece of my mind.
Tuesday I woke up expecting to crave a soda and well I didn't so I decided that soda would be ok for special treats like dinners out or auctions in the summer. However Tuesday at work was WAY more stressful than Monday was. But I refrained from falling to the soda or skipping meals. Once again thanks to a friend that was very helpful in keeping me from going off deep end. I haven't known her very long but she is amazing and I am SO glad our paths crossed! Tuesday night didn't sleep had bad dreams and one bad dream that I hadn't had in over 14 years that kept me awake for 2 hours.
Wednesday was a little better than Tuesday but not much I did end up not eating enough at breakfast so for lunch I had some chicken strips and a soda. And all was right in the world my brain was functiniong from having the protein of the chicken and being full and the soda took the edge off the stress. My friend texted me and said it was ok to have a soda cause once in a while we need our blankie. SO SO true. The evening was good kids were pretty well behaved and played together nicely (been a struggle for the last couple weeks). My best friend sent me a text with a treadmill challenge that was 10 min long and I did it well I had to modify a bit but it was done and I pushed hard and I had done 10 minutes of legs and ab/core work.
Ended up having a ambulance assist fire call a little after 10 so I went to it got home around 11 and went to bed. No bad dreams but still dreams that caused little to no sleep.
This morning I woke up yes tired but not as stressed feeling which I am glad of and so far the day has been way better than the whole week.
Maybe I am finally figuring this all out and I can't even to begin how nice it is to have a support system of great friends and online friends like Mindy from Road Runner Girl! Who told me I was awesome yesterday which was something I needed to hear. I often feel alone in this journey but I realized yesterday I am not alone. I have a lot of people who believe in me even when I don't believe in myself.
Thursday, March 14, 2013
Monday, March 11, 2013
The weekend.
Why is it that Saturday and Sunday go much faster than any two days in the work week....??????
Friday night I braved two grocery stores with the kids in tow. They were cranky and tired and it tested every last ounce of patience I had. Not to mention both stores were super busy! So not long after getting home they were in bed sound asleep and I had a bit of quiet time to relax.
Saturday morning I got up and went to my massage appointment. Its only the second time I have ever had a massage. My first was amazing and my amazing hubby bought me a gift certificate to the same place for me as a Christmas gift. So I made sure I was the first appointment of the day and go figure the girl was late... Not a great start to my day and her reason for being late was she had to take a shower and eat a good breakfast!!! A simple sorry I am late would have been fine. She did an ok job with massage however the rest of the day and yesterday and today I feel like jello. My legs are achy and hurt and spots on my back and neck feel bruised to the point it hurts if something touches the skin there. So lesson learned I don't want her again.....
After getting home from town and another trip to the grocery store to get what I forgot night before I get a text from Blake's friend's mom asking if Blake could come and play. I agreed and he was over the moon happy! So I met her in town and Nathan was a bit unhappy Blake was leaving so I offered to take him to the park for a bit and he said no he wanted to go home and play. Well not long after getting home he was sound asleep. I was supposed to get Blake at 7 however I get a text asking if he can stay the night which I agreed.
Nathan wanted to go across the road to see Grandpa and Grandma so we walked over and he decided he wanted to play with bubba's play dough (apparently his is better even tho they both have the same colors...) Grandma asked me if I wanted to go thru her china cabinets and pick out the dishes and antiques I wanted. I will do a separate post about this sometime. Nathan and I stayed until after dark and headed home to eat some dinner. He still wasn't happy Blake wasn't home but didn't complain to much.
Sunday morning around 1am we got a big storm lots of thunder and lightning. Woke me up and ended up waking up everyone in my house! Nathan screamed when the lightning popped real close to the house and I was up with him for awhile. Of course time change also happened that night so it was odd being awake when your phone goes from 1:59 am to 3am!!! Sunday morning I was majorly dragging and lacking energy.
Since Kenny had to go help a friend work they decided to go eat breakfast and Nathan and I tagged along he had fun being the only one with us and he likes Kenny's friend. After breakfast Nathan and I drove around a bit to kill time before picking Blake up it was nasty and rainy all day. We spent some time all 3 of us snuggling on the couch watching tv until it quit raining. Then I allowed them to go out and play in the water and mud (now I have mud covered clothes and shoes to clean but they had fun).
While they were playing outside I purged my closet and dresser drawers of clothes that either didn't fit or that I haven't wore in months. I got rid of two huge trash bags and could have probably had another full but I have issues with letting go of some items.
Friday night I braved two grocery stores with the kids in tow. They were cranky and tired and it tested every last ounce of patience I had. Not to mention both stores were super busy! So not long after getting home they were in bed sound asleep and I had a bit of quiet time to relax.
Saturday morning I got up and went to my massage appointment. Its only the second time I have ever had a massage. My first was amazing and my amazing hubby bought me a gift certificate to the same place for me as a Christmas gift. So I made sure I was the first appointment of the day and go figure the girl was late... Not a great start to my day and her reason for being late was she had to take a shower and eat a good breakfast!!! A simple sorry I am late would have been fine. She did an ok job with massage however the rest of the day and yesterday and today I feel like jello. My legs are achy and hurt and spots on my back and neck feel bruised to the point it hurts if something touches the skin there. So lesson learned I don't want her again.....
After getting home from town and another trip to the grocery store to get what I forgot night before I get a text from Blake's friend's mom asking if Blake could come and play. I agreed and he was over the moon happy! So I met her in town and Nathan was a bit unhappy Blake was leaving so I offered to take him to the park for a bit and he said no he wanted to go home and play. Well not long after getting home he was sound asleep. I was supposed to get Blake at 7 however I get a text asking if he can stay the night which I agreed.
Nathan wanted to go across the road to see Grandpa and Grandma so we walked over and he decided he wanted to play with bubba's play dough (apparently his is better even tho they both have the same colors...) Grandma asked me if I wanted to go thru her china cabinets and pick out the dishes and antiques I wanted. I will do a separate post about this sometime. Nathan and I stayed until after dark and headed home to eat some dinner. He still wasn't happy Blake wasn't home but didn't complain to much.
Sunday morning around 1am we got a big storm lots of thunder and lightning. Woke me up and ended up waking up everyone in my house! Nathan screamed when the lightning popped real close to the house and I was up with him for awhile. Of course time change also happened that night so it was odd being awake when your phone goes from 1:59 am to 3am!!! Sunday morning I was majorly dragging and lacking energy.
Since Kenny had to go help a friend work they decided to go eat breakfast and Nathan and I tagged along he had fun being the only one with us and he likes Kenny's friend. After breakfast Nathan and I drove around a bit to kill time before picking Blake up it was nasty and rainy all day. We spent some time all 3 of us snuggling on the couch watching tv until it quit raining. Then I allowed them to go out and play in the water and mud (now I have mud covered clothes and shoes to clean but they had fun).
While they were playing outside I purged my closet and dresser drawers of clothes that either didn't fit or that I haven't wore in months. I got rid of two huge trash bags and could have probably had another full but I have issues with letting go of some items.
Weekly Chase!
Wow another week has flown by and the weekend went way way to fast. The daylight savings time made yesterday feel like it went on forever or maybe that is because it stormed Sunday morning really early and I was awake to see my phone jump forward.....
My goals from last week were:
Challenge Goal Get in to a good workout routine that includes cardio and strength training. If I want to prove all the negative people wrong that say I can't do this race I need a good solid routine I can stick to.
1-Challenge goal-Plan out a routine that will work research workouts that can be done at home with little to no equipment. Totally failed at this one.... I am still lost as to what to do if someone said ok here is a plan do it I could totally do it but trying to devise one on my own ha ya not working so well....
2-Continue to drink 80oz of water daily. Yep every day and even did good over the weekend.
3-Get at least two walk/runs in on my lunch hour this week weather looks to be nicer and my cough is getting better (I think) Well got a 2 mile in on my lunch Monday in snow and slush then Thursday evening tried to get a workout in on the treadmill ten min in the boys were both fighting and kept coming in to tell me their side of what happened.
4-Spend time with the kids of an evening doing something they choose. Success! Several evenings we had snuggle time watching their favorite tv show Duck Dynasty. Better than some of the crazy cartoons they like. Then yesterday the three of us laid on the couch for a long time watching tv.
5-Stay away from unhealthy fast foods. Yep did so so I let the kids have McDonald's on Thursday evening and I had a salad from there and it was pretty good. One day at lunch a hamburger sounded good well I ate it and never ever again had the worst stomach issues all afternoon.
Goals for this week:::
Continue on the Challenge Goal of figuring out a workout routine to get me ready for the Fugitive Run in May which is less than 80 days away!
1-Continue with 80oz of water each day (still soda free for 11 days now)
2-Bring my lunch daily to work and eat healthy each meal at night.
3-Get in 3 workouts during lunch breaks this week.
4-Track my food in myfitness pal, I have tried this before and it becomes a struggle of falling back in to old habits of not eating enough and trying to have as many calories left at night as possible.
5-Finish buying stuff to put in the box to mail to my best friend in Hawaii and mail it out.
6-Since its daylight later make time to play with the kids in the evening.
My goals from last week were:
Challenge Goal Get in to a good workout routine that includes cardio and strength training. If I want to prove all the negative people wrong that say I can't do this race I need a good solid routine I can stick to.
1-Challenge goal-Plan out a routine that will work research workouts that can be done at home with little to no equipment. Totally failed at this one.... I am still lost as to what to do if someone said ok here is a plan do it I could totally do it but trying to devise one on my own ha ya not working so well....
2-Continue to drink 80oz of water daily. Yep every day and even did good over the weekend.
3-Get at least two walk/runs in on my lunch hour this week weather looks to be nicer and my cough is getting better (I think) Well got a 2 mile in on my lunch Monday in snow and slush then Thursday evening tried to get a workout in on the treadmill ten min in the boys were both fighting and kept coming in to tell me their side of what happened.
4-Spend time with the kids of an evening doing something they choose. Success! Several evenings we had snuggle time watching their favorite tv show Duck Dynasty. Better than some of the crazy cartoons they like. Then yesterday the three of us laid on the couch for a long time watching tv.
5-Stay away from unhealthy fast foods. Yep did so so I let the kids have McDonald's on Thursday evening and I had a salad from there and it was pretty good. One day at lunch a hamburger sounded good well I ate it and never ever again had the worst stomach issues all afternoon.
Goals for this week:::
Continue on the Challenge Goal of figuring out a workout routine to get me ready for the Fugitive Run in May which is less than 80 days away!
1-Continue with 80oz of water each day (still soda free for 11 days now)
2-Bring my lunch daily to work and eat healthy each meal at night.
3-Get in 3 workouts during lunch breaks this week.
4-Track my food in myfitness pal, I have tried this before and it becomes a struggle of falling back in to old habits of not eating enough and trying to have as many calories left at night as possible.
5-Finish buying stuff to put in the box to mail to my best friend in Hawaii and mail it out.
6-Since its daylight later make time to play with the kids in the evening.
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Numbers......
For some reason today I have been infatuated on numbers.. I had been texing a friend not realizing I was obsessed with numbers today and well I think its my way of dealing with stress. My old way of dealing with stress was soda and since I am on day 7 of no soda I guess numbers took center stage.
Last night as I finished entering my calories in to myfitness pal I had 500+ left out of my 1500 for the day (no wonder I was hungry most of the day). I have to watch this infatuated with numbers because I end up trying to have more and more calories left at the end of the day or try to workout enough to have a negative number by bed time.....
This morning while texing my friend I told her we are on day 7 of no soda. Have 17 days until our next race. I have 80 days until my fugitive run (which I am still freaking out over) and 86 days until June 1 I cant say what June first means for us but its a goal date in a way. She replies back aren't you full of stressors lol....
This afternoon I realized its 49 days until my 30th birthday. Not sure why but 30 has been bugging me for quite sometime. I guess everyone has a year that they aren't looking forward to. I wanted to be at my goal weight have a job I love etc. Well I haven't mastered anything on my "list" and its frustrating. However I just took the time to look on what I have accomplished in the last year and what I have ahead this year and maybe 30 won't be so bad.
I won't even get in to the numbers on my scale that I despise lately or the number of people who have told me I am crazy or stupid for trying the fugitive run or the number of people that don't think I am strong enough or capable of doing it.
REALLY need to figure out a training plan for my obstacle course race any suggestions greatly appreciated. I would be great if someone said ok here's a plan and follow it... I am NOT good at trying to create my own for one I know I won't push as hard as I should and can.
Last night as I finished entering my calories in to myfitness pal I had 500+ left out of my 1500 for the day (no wonder I was hungry most of the day). I have to watch this infatuated with numbers because I end up trying to have more and more calories left at the end of the day or try to workout enough to have a negative number by bed time.....
This morning while texing my friend I told her we are on day 7 of no soda. Have 17 days until our next race. I have 80 days until my fugitive run (which I am still freaking out over) and 86 days until June 1 I cant say what June first means for us but its a goal date in a way. She replies back aren't you full of stressors lol....
This afternoon I realized its 49 days until my 30th birthday. Not sure why but 30 has been bugging me for quite sometime. I guess everyone has a year that they aren't looking forward to. I wanted to be at my goal weight have a job I love etc. Well I haven't mastered anything on my "list" and its frustrating. However I just took the time to look on what I have accomplished in the last year and what I have ahead this year and maybe 30 won't be so bad.
I won't even get in to the numbers on my scale that I despise lately or the number of people who have told me I am crazy or stupid for trying the fugitive run or the number of people that don't think I am strong enough or capable of doing it.
REALLY need to figure out a training plan for my obstacle course race any suggestions greatly appreciated. I would be great if someone said ok here's a plan and follow it... I am NOT good at trying to create my own for one I know I won't push as hard as I should and can.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Wednesday ramblings and surprise visits
Been soda free for 6 days and while I am not really craving one I would drink one if I could! The headaches have gotten more bearable and my moodiness is improved. Loving the Zipfizz and will defiantly be ordering some in the near future.
Last night we had company and it was a surprise for the boys and well ended up being a surprise for me too. Dwayne and Connie hadn't seen our house since it was completed so we were excited to have them come over. Dwayne had drew up the house plans for us when we started the house. My surprise came from Ashlyne and her brother Zach coming with them. I hadn't got to see her in a long time and the boys were super excited to see all of them. Ashlyne babysat for Blake when he was young and then for both of them when Nathan was a baby.
Blake was riding Zach like a bull I think they both got very wore out! Blake has been wanting to be a bullrider since he was 2 and hasn't changed a bit.
Nathan wanted to join in to and he borrowed Dwayne's hat to wear while he rode the bull.
Nathan and his Nonna he wanted her to stay the night with him. Maybe that is because she snuck him drinks of her sundrop.... :)
Nathan was showing Nonna and Ashlyne how to play the Nintento DS.
We really enjoyed their visit and the boys wore themselves completely out and was asleep 20 minutes after they all left.
I signed up for another race this month its March 23 and its the Race to the Rocker its a semi local race only a 30 min drive from home. Its a bit odd as its a 4 mile race never done anything but 5k and half marathon. A friend of mine is doing the race with me and we are doing it for fun she has never done more than a 5k distance before so I think it will be a fun day with a good friend.
Its less than 80 days until my Fugitive Run and I am still hoping I can find at least one person to do this race with me. From what I read some obstacles need teamwork and well being super short I know I will need assistance on some of the things. I am scared of this course it will have up to 85 obstacles!
Last night we had company and it was a surprise for the boys and well ended up being a surprise for me too. Dwayne and Connie hadn't seen our house since it was completed so we were excited to have them come over. Dwayne had drew up the house plans for us when we started the house. My surprise came from Ashlyne and her brother Zach coming with them. I hadn't got to see her in a long time and the boys were super excited to see all of them. Ashlyne babysat for Blake when he was young and then for both of them when Nathan was a baby.
We really enjoyed their visit and the boys wore themselves completely out and was asleep 20 minutes after they all left.
I signed up for another race this month its March 23 and its the Race to the Rocker its a semi local race only a 30 min drive from home. Its a bit odd as its a 4 mile race never done anything but 5k and half marathon. A friend of mine is doing the race with me and we are doing it for fun she has never done more than a 5k distance before so I think it will be a fun day with a good friend.
Its less than 80 days until my Fugitive Run and I am still hoping I can find at least one person to do this race with me. From what I read some obstacles need teamwork and well being super short I know I will need assistance on some of the things. I am scared of this course it will have up to 85 obstacles!
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
A nice surpise
Yesterday the receptionist told me I had a package that came in the mail. I wasn't expecting anything and knew I hadn't ordered anything. Before seeing the package I figured it would be papers that we were waiting on for a file for the office.
Much to my surprise it was a package from Rachelle at Living the Sweat Life. I have followed her blog for quite sometime and she has done a few blog posts about Zipfizz. I have often wanted to try it but I am one of those people who don't like to spend a lot of money on something I am not sure if I will like. In my surprise package yesterday was 5 tubes of Zipfizz! And it couldn't have came at a better day! I had gave up soda on March 1 cold turkey just quit and yesterday was the hardest day thus far. Between stress of work and being exhausted I wanted/needed a soda. I tried the orange flavor yesterday and loved it, tasted like orange soda or tang (loved that stuff as a kid). This morning I am trying the grape and I like it too!
It has a slight fizz to it so it makes you feel like your having soda which is nice. I do forsee myself ordering this soon!
Thank you very very much Rachelle for the package yesterday it was just what I needed to get thru the Monday afternoon slump and start to day off great!
I even got a lady at work to try a drink of the orange yesterday so I may have another person hooked :)
Much to my surprise it was a package from Rachelle at Living the Sweat Life. I have followed her blog for quite sometime and she has done a few blog posts about Zipfizz. I have often wanted to try it but I am one of those people who don't like to spend a lot of money on something I am not sure if I will like. In my surprise package yesterday was 5 tubes of Zipfizz! And it couldn't have came at a better day! I had gave up soda on March 1 cold turkey just quit and yesterday was the hardest day thus far. Between stress of work and being exhausted I wanted/needed a soda. I tried the orange flavor yesterday and loved it, tasted like orange soda or tang (loved that stuff as a kid). This morning I am trying the grape and I like it too!
It has a slight fizz to it so it makes you feel like your having soda which is nice. I do forsee myself ordering this soon!
I even got a lady at work to try a drink of the orange yesterday so I may have another person hooked :)
Monday, March 4, 2013
The Weekly Chase
How is it that the weekends seem to fly by so fast? I feel like I was just at work and now its Monday again.
Goals for last week were:
1-Challenge Goal- Continue to have family time and not let my mood from work affect my evening at home. About 90% accomplished
2-Get in at least 3 workouts this week combo of cardio and strength training I wrote this when I was trying to deny that I was sick. Ended up coughing non stop all week and dr said I had ugly upper respiratory infection and then shook her head when she asked how I got it without having a cold first. So no real workouts we did an auction yesterday so I moved and loaded heavy coolers twice and then loaded and unloaded a generator twice. So I will count it as at least one workout unless coughing counts....
3-Challenge Goal-Be in a better mood and be a better wife this week. pretty successful with this as well. My mood was slightly better than the week before and even with being sick I didn't let things upset me.
4- Drink at least 80 oz of water daily. YES!! Being sick and coughing makes you very thirsty :)
5-Make eating healthy a priority at least 90% of the week. Yep accomplished that one
6-Sign up for a race that scares me (there will be a post on this soon) Signed up for the race and signed the death waiver!
The challenge goals for this month are to Make it Happen "I want you to think of one or two LARGE goals this month that you really want to see happen. I mean really."
Challenge Goal Get in to a good workout routine that includes cardio and strength training. If I want to prove all the negative people wrong that say I can't do this race I need a good solid routine I can stick to.
1-Challenge goal-Plan out a routine that will work research workouts that can be done at home with little to no equipment.
2-Continue to drink 80oz of water daily.
3-Get at least two walk/runs in on my lunch hour this week weather looks to be nicer and my cough is getting better (I think)
4-Spend time with the kids of an evening doing something they choose.
5-Stay away from unhealthy fast foods.
Goals for last week were:
1-Challenge Goal- Continue to have family time and not let my mood from work affect my evening at home. About 90% accomplished
2-Get in at least 3 workouts this week combo of cardio and strength training I wrote this when I was trying to deny that I was sick. Ended up coughing non stop all week and dr said I had ugly upper respiratory infection and then shook her head when she asked how I got it without having a cold first. So no real workouts we did an auction yesterday so I moved and loaded heavy coolers twice and then loaded and unloaded a generator twice. So I will count it as at least one workout unless coughing counts....
3-Challenge Goal-Be in a better mood and be a better wife this week. pretty successful with this as well. My mood was slightly better than the week before and even with being sick I didn't let things upset me.
4- Drink at least 80 oz of water daily. YES!! Being sick and coughing makes you very thirsty :)
5-Make eating healthy a priority at least 90% of the week. Yep accomplished that one
6-Sign up for a race that scares me (there will be a post on this soon) Signed up for the race and signed the death waiver!
The challenge goals for this month are to Make it Happen "I want you to think of one or two LARGE goals this month that you really want to see happen. I mean really."
Challenge Goal Get in to a good workout routine that includes cardio and strength training. If I want to prove all the negative people wrong that say I can't do this race I need a good solid routine I can stick to.
1-Challenge goal-Plan out a routine that will work research workouts that can be done at home with little to no equipment.
2-Continue to drink 80oz of water daily.
3-Get at least two walk/runs in on my lunch hour this week weather looks to be nicer and my cough is getting better (I think)
4-Spend time with the kids of an evening doing something they choose.
5-Stay away from unhealthy fast foods.
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